Be brave, be bold, be free.
There's something about death that is comforting. The thought that you could die tomorrow frees you to appreciate your life now.
The truth is I love being alive. And I love feeling free. So if I can't have those things then I feel like a caged animal and I'd rather not be in a cage. I'd rather be dead. And it's real simple. And I think it's not that uncommon.