Being tired of all illusions and of everything about illusions – the loss of illusions, the uselessness of having them, the prefatigue of having to have them in order to lose them, the sadness of having had them, the intellectual shame of having had them knowing that they would have to end this way.
I don't mourn the loss of my childhood; I mourn because everything, including (my) childhood, is lost.
Decadence is the total loss of unconsciousness, which is the very basis of life. Could it think, the heart would stop beating.