If you are willing to take an instant to withdraw attention from whatever your internal dialogue is, to withdraw energy from whatever the latest point of view about your suffering is, it is immediately obvious what is here: the fullness, the richness and the love of oneself as conscious life.
Surrender all thought, emotion, and circumstance to that which is bigger and deeper. Surrender your identity. Surrender your suffering to that which is closer than identity, deeper than suffering. Do you discover victory or defeat in this surrender?