I always had this put-together family, and I always identified as the outsider. And that's a position where I feel most comfortable, and yet I feel an incredible longing to belong. That is really a strong feeling from my childhood - a desire to be part of a group.
To go back to my childhood, I experienced lots of different family cultures, all the while feeling like none of them were mine.
I tend to elongate the sentences as I'm writing and editing, and there is just something about the feeling of writing longhand that I really love.