People think I'm strong, but actually I wanted to crawl away. I thought, I'm going to live in the country with my horse and I'll get a nine-to-five; I don't need this.
It's not realistic to live in the country at this stage. I've got a business in London. I beat myself up about it all the time.
We always had our own vegetables growing up and now I'm doing it with my kids at our house in the country.
