I felt dull and flat and full of shattered visions.
What I cannot forgive is dishonesty - and no matter what, or how hard, I would rather know the truth of which I today had such a clear & devastating vision from his mouth than hear foul evasions, blurrings and rattiness.
A terrible depression yesterday. Visions of my life petering out into a kind of soft-brained stupor from lack of use.