Sometimes, making the wrong choice is better than making no choice. You have the courage to go forward, that is rare. A person who stands at the fork, unable to pick, will never get anywhere.
Charity, if you have the means, is a personal choice, but charity which is expected or compelled is simply a polite word for slavery.
If you want to be a slave in life, then continue going around asking others to do for you. They will oblige, but you will find the price is your choices, your freedom, your life itself. They will do for you, and as a result you will be in bondage to them forever, having given your identity away for a paltry price. Then, and only then, you will be a nobody, a slave, because you yourself and nobody else made it so.
The sun has already set on the days we made those choices. We must concentrate on what we can do tomorrow; we can't relive yesterday.