This is how God works. He puts people in positions where they are desperate for his power, and then he shows his provision in ways that display his greatness
As Elisabeth Elliot points out, not even dying a martyr’s death is classified as extraordinary obedience when you are following a Savior who died on a cross. Suddenly a martyr’s death seems like normal obedience.
Christianity does not begin with our pursuit of Christ, but with Christ’s pursuit of us.