Some have immersed themselves in internet materials that magnify, exaggerate, and in some cases invent shortcomings of early Church leaders. Then they draw incorrect conclusions that can affect testimony. Any who have made these choices can repent and be spiritually renewed.
It is important to rise above rationalizations and make the best choices.
One of your greatest protections against making bad choices is to not put on any mask of anonymity.
When we choose to follow Christ in faith rather than choosing another path out of fear, we are blessed with a consequence that is consistent with our choice.
Rationalization for bad choices will not be effective, but repentance will. Those who repent will be particularly blessed by the Atonement.