Tough times never last, but tough people do. You might add, "You're tougher than you give yourself credit for."
Giving never moves in a straight line - it always moves in circles.
If only we could love ourselves enough to dare to approach God, what constructive dreams he would give us! What noble possibilities God wants to reveal to us - possibilities that would offer stimulation plus real security in service. But we feel too unworthy. So one layer of negative behavior is laid upon another until we emerge as rebellious sinners. But our rebellion is a reaction, not our nature. By nature we are fearful, not bad.
God's forgiving grace is incomplete until he gives me - and I accept - a new kingdom-building dream and opportunity.