The path you take is up to you. Make good choices, dream BIG, it is never too late.
One night I was in the players' parking lot at the Fleet Center in my Celtics warm-ups about a half hour before a game, waiting for one of my dealers to come up from Fall River, because if I didn't get my stuff I was too sick to even go through the pre-game layup line, never mind actually play in the game.
You do not need drugs and alcohol to change who you are - You are perfect just the way you are.