It's wrong to criticize leaders of the Church, even if the criticism is true.
The church doesn't seek apologies and we don't give them.
I encourage you to seek the help of the Savior to resist temptation and to refrain from behavior that would cause you to have to repent or to have your Church membership called into question.
A person with homosexual inclinations, where they're kept under control, or, if yielded to are appropriately repented of, is eligible to do anything in the Church that can be done by any member of the Church who is single.
Service is an imperative for those who worship Jesus Christ and a covenant obligation of those who belong to his Church.