I was poisoning myself with alcohol and medicating myself. I was trying to numb things. I was trying not to feel things, and that's ridiculous. It's one of the dumbest things you can do, because all you're doing is postponing the inevitable. Someday you'll have to look all those things in the eye rather than try to numb the pain.
You never think you're on the verge of disaster while you're looking over the edge yourself. It's your friends and family who are trying to get you to stop destroying yourself and after a while it kind of sank in and I just cleaned up my act.
I did mostly alcohol. There were drugs, too - pills - and there was a danger that I would go over the edge. I could have. I thank God I didn't.
I'm not a great pothead or anything like that... but weed is much, much less dangerous than alcohol.
I'd get very nervous and uncomfortable in social situations and the only way I could feel at all normal was, well, to drink my guts out.
I'm a dumb-ass, and I poisoned myself for years. Now I understand things better.
I don't drink hard liquor anymore, but I sometimes order Lagavulin just for the smell. It's so good. It's unbelievable.
Out on the street, you never know what you're getting, and suddenly two days later you're beating yourself in the head with a tennis racket, wearing a towel, quoting Poe. You don't want that for your kid. You really don't want that.
Pretty much any drug you can name, I've done it.
I was never a cokehead or anything like that. I always despised that drug. I thought it was a waste of time, pointless.